20 May 2013, Upstairs at Café Rouge
This was the second time I had hosted a Death Café at Café Rouge in
Hampstead. The room is a lovely venue, the ambience is just right for this
event. Three huge tall windows with white wooden shutters, one of these being French doors leading out
onto a narrow roof terrace along the front of the building. It is a grand,
bohemian style room with mirrors and posters and a solid wooden floor and high
ceilings. It is rather private and fairly quiet, away from the hubbub of the
café below, but it is not closed off.
Fifteen people had booked to attend, three cancelled and
two others were not able to come on the day. So it was that 11 of us gathered around one long narrow
table, set along the length of the room, a rather convivial set up, as in a
grand house.
Three people had attended several other Death Cafes, but for everyone
else this was the first time.
Instead of tea and cake the food was ice cream and wine, salad,
delicious selection of starters, lemon pressé, cappucchino or soup.
I introduced myself and the concept of Death Café and invited everyone
to introduce themselves and what had brought them here. There was a wide range
of reasons, mostly people expressed a wish to be able to discuss the topic of
death freely, to voice one’s own concerns as well as hearing from others. Amongst the 10 guests there was only
one man.
Several people had been bereaved, some recently. One person spoke
about the impending death of a sister, who had asked to have her obituary
written. The writing of the obituary proved to be a challenge, which required a
lot of thought and reflection on her life, and brought about the awareness of
what was still unsaid: a great deal of appreciation and admiration. This led to
a discussion on how we may be holding back from people close to us. Someone
came up with the thought of holding a funeral before one has died to hear what
people have to say. This also led to more thoughts on how we want to live now
or in the future.
A topic mentioned but not taken further was that finally making a Will
was a difficult thing to do, a coming to terms with age, and there was a relief
to be had in doing it. It was also good knowing that one can amend the Will in
the future and make changes. Some thought they would like to attend a workshop
to help them create a Living Will. Several thought it was a good idea to do,
but not so easy to get down to actually doing it. One member has recently run a
workshop on this topic and there was a plan that she and I might link up and
host one together. I have held many workshops on this and similar topics in the
past.
Having started a conversation at Death Cafe might perhaps make the
attending a workshop less daunting. We shared many stories of experiences with
preparing for dying besides the experience of actual death and of funerals.
Halfway through the
evening I invited everyone to consider what they felt would constitute the
ideal death for them and asked them to describe the setting and the qualities
of this ideal death. People spoke
in pairs and afterwards we had a round of feedback. The atmosphere in the room
changed. It brought the whole theme more into focus on a personal and an emotional
level. One person cried and was visibly upset, but quite contained. Some very
moving things were shared.
It was a privilege to be there and I am sure I was
not the only one who felt this was a spiritual moment when life really comes
into focus. Thank you everyone for coming and for your contribution to make it
the special evening it was.
In a closing round, after some people had rushed off earlier, one
person expressed the sense that only positive stories were acceptable and
perhaps had a sense that the fears about dying did not get an adequate hearing.
Another said in her feedback that she had hoped there would have been a chance
to speak in a smaller circle about bereavement. So there were some
disappointments.
Feedback
summary (5/10
returned)
Where did you hear
about this event?
• Internet
• the press - not
sure where,
• Dying Matters
website,
• via friend,
• via Josefine.
What age are you? 54, 65, 65, 59, 57. (average
age is 60)
Average total age: Approx.56.
What is your
profession?
• Designer
• retired – worked with older people before,
• unemployed/CAB volunteer,
• gilder artist,
• artist &
singer.
5 females (four
women and one man had to rush off without leaving feedback )
Overall, how would
you rate this event? (10 = excellent, 1 =poor):
10, 10, 10, 8, 6. Average: 8.8
Please comment on
your experience of this event:
• Wonderfully facilitated. Very open and inspiring sharing
of feelings around death and dying.
• Got sleepy – airless room- bit of noises, but a cohesive
& sensitive holding from Josefine initially, but this spread amongst us all…
a glad & honest exposure – safely led.
• I felt safe and accepted.
• Group well held and lots of information re aspects of death
• A very warm feeling of connection with people here but in
a way feeling I was repressing quite a lot of a dual reality& experiences
from my life. I felt it was important to concentrate on the positive here.
Anything about the
event which particularly stood out for you:
• The depth of expression achieved in such a short space of
time.
• GRATITUDE…. For one person’s glimpse of the couple, being in
the moment and generous with their openness…undistracted, calm, going with the
flow.
Was there any aspect of the event you were
dissatisfied with or felt uncomfortable about and wished it had been different
in some way, and how?
• Could
have done with jugs of water & glasses on the table.
• I am not
sure it was what I was looking for.. I felt that death was being talked about
as an event. At the moment it is a very close experience for me/bereavement. I
would have liked to have looked at the personal experience of people - at the
feellings – and not so much the stories. Maybe it is too recent for me,
although lots of the issues relevant. It may first be that I am not ready to
open up in a big group about what I am experiencing.
• A workshop
on writing will and legalising it and implementing
If someone told you
they were thinking of attending a Death Café, what would you say to
them?
• Try it.
• Go for it! You will find it liberating.
• Wonderful,
hope it is a good experience.
• Do this often and be grateful for it – will help all of
us, in all of life.
• Go. I will recommend it.
Josefine Speyer is the co-founder of the Natural Death Centre. Her next Death Cafes are on Monday 17 June and Monday 29 July 2013. More details here.
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